Once again I found myself in a dream that kept going all night. Be taking here and there I was traveled about in limos and large black town cars. I awoke this morning and let me tell you, I felt like I had been “up” all night. I never remember “waking” up here, but I was awake all the time in the dream.This is the second dream in a year where I ended up in some “gang” as someone who was there to help. Last year’s dream I was a finance architect. This time I was their computer geek running their organization and its books. The hard part for me was in the dream they were always in fear of the government or the authorities, but I never saw anything that would lead me to believe they were acting illegally. They had money. They had power. But they also had fear.
The other night I had a dream and in that dream I felt “responsibility” about everything. Not that it was “my fault” but that I had to take care of things.
I felt the two dreams were connected this morning.
Too often our desire is to take on responsibility that is not ours to take. Shouldering loads that we were not intended to carry.
In the dream about the “gang” they from everything I could see made their monies through illegal activities. But at some point they had “got religion” and made major shifts. Oh, they still carried themselves as “gangsters” but they were in a new business (es) and were doing well. Just because the package had not changed on the outside doesn’t mean what is inside had not.
We are in the middle of what can only be called a shift. The people I was “with” last night still lived in fear and had not overcome their previous lifestyle thinking. They had not plugged into their new identity, their new lifestyle. Last year’s dream had me dealing with people who were still doing the “illegal” stuff but God was using me in that dream as an agent of change.
Today, I sit here, like many and wonder “what is next?” Not that I spend hours or even minutes working on “tomorrow” but I am here in a moment by moment existence. I walked in those two dreams bringing people to an understanding of identity and who they were becoming outside and what they had become inside.
Lately it seems like there has been a lot of sickness. How can this be? This is trespassing in my book. A lot of loss. What is going on?
I want to share a few things that I have been pondering.
Last year I was in South Carolina at a small meeting (20 of us.) and Bob Jones came to share with us a few times. Just sitting around the room sharing. One of the key things he said was “take care of yourself. I wish I had done that. Take care of your physical being.” I remember thinking I would not see him again. (He died last week.)This was important to me.
Last week my phone battery began to go rapidly. I determined in part it was because it was “searching” for something. On Saturday, my car battery died because I had the lights on while waiting for someone requiring a jump start. Searching and light. Both are important. But constantly searching is “wearing” and at some point you have to say “stop”. If you are born again, you don’t have to look for Jesus. So what are you looking for? Seeking? Answers? Most people I know are looking for an answer to a problem. It might be a relational problem or a money issue. But the search is on. I know Jesus is my answer so why do I go on the hunt? I know Proverbs 25:2 says “It is the glory of God to conceal things, but the glory of kings is to search things out.” But ought I always be in search mode? Draining myself? And then when you think about it, how surprised you are when the answer appears! Where did that come from? Who was that? I don’t know about you but I usually have not a clue! I believe in the search just not the exhaustion. The lights? Again it’s the search. The bringing of light. It takes energy when you do not allow the Lord to be the answer. My yoke is easy and my burden is LIGHT!
The Lord said to me the other day, to, “lose weight”. Now I could afford the loss of some physical weight. Too much Nehemiah 8:10 will get you there. But I was pretty sure he was talking about the weightiness of carrying something that was not yours. Something different.
I my dreams these folks were carrying the weight of a former lifestyle. A thought process that because of its weight carried fear. I felt the nudge of the Lord that many were burdened with burdens that were not theirs to carry. Phantom weight. It was not real but somehow they had become so used to carrying it that it now was “part of their identity”.
The Lord is asking you to “lay aside” the weights. “Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us,” Hebrews 12:1
Like many I have some “weight” to lose. I have held on to some things that have held me back. But just as I was bringing change to folks in the dreams the Lord brought change to me 2,000 years ago. Bob Jones was right. “Get in shape and lose some weight.” I don’t know if eating Steak Tartare has relevance yet, but I do know something is close. I am honestly working at “pulling” it into my now. I want to encourage you if you have been having “one of those days” or even a season of them there is a rest for God’s people. A Sabbath. Getting in shape is sometimes less about doing something and more about changing the way you “do something”.
I remember a season of supernatural weight loss a few years ago. People were “losing” pounds in meetings. Not just one or two meetings, but many different places.
There is a supernatural “wait” loss coming to the body of Christ. Patience and diligence, integrity and perseverance are paying off. The “wait” is over.