My frustration

Today I was in a meeting for work and the question on the table was, “what is your major frustration?” My answer was a simple, “I don’t know what I don’t know.” My reason was simple. It seemed like the idea of a “simple” sale (One that didn’t need extra parts, special efforts or more.) was beyond me. Each sale seemed to require extra forms and effort to get it all together. I was fast coming to a place of “melt down”. Too many things were being required and each time I thought I had a pathway, a different route was required.

I often think my walk with God had some of those characteristics. I want a path and He wants a relationship! My wife and I did not “resolve our differences” until we knew we had differences!

My frustration was that while I was doing the things required there was another list of requirements, that I felt like I was unable to get to. A friend at work came to “comfort” me by saying that he saw that I was getting “difficult opportunities”. He also as a friend, said “you will need to figure it out to be successful”.

On so many levels our walk is like that. We might come thinking the Bible is all we ever need. Then we discover prayer, fellowship, faith and worship are important as well. It is easy for one to feel condemned if we do not have people around us who encourage us. If we do not develop our own relationship with the Father.

Last night in a dream, I was working in a building and an old acquaintance appeared. Despite the years and the grief he cause me in our past, he came over to me and said “hi”. I did not have the emotional ping I might have thought I would encounter because of some of the things that had happened.

I awoke from the dream knowing this man was going to appear in my life again. And recognizing the grace I had been given and had given to others was to be passed on.

Life is to be lived. Not as a pathway to destiny, but as a series of relationships and situations, where one day you realize, “I am here!”

This morning as I was writing, I opened the door and after a few moments I realized there was little to hear. A few months ago, the birds would be going crazy with song and incessant warbling. But here I am and the only bird I heard at all was a crow.

And I realized that it is up to us to enunciate praise and bring forth worship. It is too easy to get caught up in the “stuff” and forget the things that are important. Many will recognize that thought with this. You have been walking through life and one day a song, a face or a place just triggers emotion. Tears begin to flow. You think “where have I been?”

What is your major frustration? The spirit of praise coupled with the friends on the path will bring soothing to your soul. Put on some music and let your soul engage. Be louder than the rocks! Visit someone and change their life. “There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.”