In my earlier life I was severely prone to depression. I was treated medically for depression. I was suicidal at one dark time in my life that ended me up in the hospital for 90 days. The loss, the gun, the whole darkness. I battled suicide for years. Even in the beginning years of my Christianity I was tied to depression and sought the answers in Him while being medicated with a cabinet full of meds. And then one day I said “no more. I have nothing to lose”. I walked away.
So was it easy? NO! Because many wanted to hold my past up in the air and say “remember?”
And to suggest I have never been tempted by depression or the related thoughts would be a lie.
I know the scriptures. I know the right things to do. And even then, I would have to fight against the “darkness” of Halloween and the advances of long wintry nights.
Sometimes you just want to give up. Give in. A few years ago a friend of mine did that. He died. I know some of my friends think I am “hard” when I say don’t let the thoughts in, but I know the “price” of those thoughts.
Why bring this up? Because today was a day where a lot of things did not work out, a lot of things did not go well and many things just never materialized. Looking for a reason to be grateful was harder today than others. But I made it. And so can you.
I declare that the darkness over lives and households and even communities must leave. I speak light, life and liberty into friends and family, communities and regions, states and nations. The joy of the Lord is percolating even now, bubbling out even now.